Wrestling

Okay, so I promised to post as soon as my paper was done-my last graduate school paper. All I have left now if my internship and final portfolio before I graduate. Finally the paper is done! I had hoped to finish it two weeks ago, but, well, that just didn't happen. Anyway, it's done.

I've been wrestling with a lot of thoughts lately. Now that I'm in my last semester of school, I'm applying to a number of different jobs. And that has gotten a bit frustrating. It is hard because some of these jobs I really want, but i have a hard time believing that giving them a few pieces of paper is going to convince them to take a chance on me. {cue Mamma Mia music}


It's hard too because I can't seem to decide what I want the next chapter of my life to look like. Some of my options would possibly make life more difficult but be immensely rewarding. Some of my options are a bit safer, but have potential to be incredibly rewarding as well. And so I wrestle back and forth with whether God is telling me to take a big chance or if I should be smart and responsible and take the safer route. It is one of the hardest decisions I've had to make. 


I know I'm not being overly specific here and that may be confusing. When I get a job offer and accept it I will explain my choice in some more details. I also know that this is a stage that nearly every college graduate goes through. A few months ago my amazing friend Kara was telling me all about her search for jobs and I knew I was about six months away from the very same feelings she was having. FYI- it worked out great for her-she got an amazing offer at a place she dreamed of working. 


I won't lie, I'm hoping for something similar...and trusting in the One I know has things figured out even when I don't.

Why a picture of a cactus?
Because this whole decision making
 process is a pain. And I have no other relevant photos